With my first Daughter Emily (who is now 3) I had a very difficult pregnancy, it all went well up until around the 20 week mark until I started having bleeds, at first they thought it was a one off as my placenta was fine, my cervix was closed and Emily seemed to be okay but the bleeds continued and we found out Emily had IUGR (which is where her growth is restricted) and then we found out my cervix was shorter then it should it be! So I was transferred to a bigger hospital and I was lost in the system multiple times. I was scared senseless by remarks Doctors made (She may have Down Syndrome etc) Anyway I was in and out of Hospital until 34 weeks when I had another bleed and Emily's heart rate went down, and they couldn't leave her in any longer, so I had an emergency c-section. She had to be resuscitated and put in NICU for a few days but she was strong and was moved to Special Care quite quickly! She is now a beautiful, vibrant, intelligent, hilarious, amazing little 3 year old who inspires me every day! So there is the condensed story of my Pregnancy and Birth with Emily. I should also note that I suffered infections after my c-section and it took me quite awhile to recover.
Now fast track it to more recently; I suffer from quite severe anxiety, I have been going through testing for Multiple Sclerosis (which luckily it's unlikely I have) and it's presumed to be Chronic Fatigue. So I am very tired and weak most of the time and have troubles with dizziness and balance! So let's just say a Baby wasn't in the works, we had actually decided to only have Emily, as I didn't think my body was strong enough let alone my mind, as I still wasn't over the anxiety from my previous pregnancy.
But God had other ideas - From late March to April, I was feeling worse than usual but because I feel so tired and crap all the time I didn't take much notice, plus we had all come down with a virus so I thought since my immune system is so weak that I was just taking awhile to get over that. Then we have the issue of missing periods, I didn't really think much of it as my periods have been irregular, but after missing 2 periods and feeling so awful, I came to the conclusion that I must have ovarian cancer (of course!) Yes I am a hypochondriac (Google is evil) It didn't cross my mind that I could be pregnant for agggges. How stupid am I? But not to go into too much detail - My Hubby and I didn't have an overly active sex life due to my health and we were always really careful when we did!
Anyway one day whilst I was sitting on the couch feeling nauseous and watching "Dr Quinn Medicine Woman" I suddenly thought "Oh I have a pregnancy test in my draw, maybe I should do one just in case" Then our whole lives changed (yes I am being a bit dramatic but it's true!!) The two blue lines came up so quickly, and I was not expecting it what so ever! All I could say was "No no no no no no" and burst into tears and rang my Hubby, and he was as bewildered as I was! Then I rang my Bestie and she was like "Omg yay" and I was like "Nooooo". My next phone call was to my GP, and I was lucky that he got me an appt that day, so off I went and his test was positive too! By this time I was still in total shock but also nervous that the blood test would come back negative as a little part of me wanted this little miracle! Later that day I was able to get in for an U/S as I had convinced my self that I had a Molar Pregnancy ( no idea why, I blame my Friend Ribbons - yes even though most of you reading this will know me personally, I am still using an alias for her, incase she doesn't want me using her name haha)
Sorry I will continue on subject, I drank litres of water, felt suitably like I was going to explode and went off to the Imaging centre - Then people, I saw it, the sac, the little teensy Baby in my tummy and the heartbeat!!! It was so surreal! AND the baby was measuring 8 weeks! Which I couldn't believe!
So that's the story of how I found out I was pregnant again!
I will be shortly doing another post about from there to now :)
Jamie x
8 weeks U/S -
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